How do I stop being so angry and disappointed every month when I get my period?

It's so hard to follow the advice of others. "When you stop trying so hard to conceive, that's when you will get pregnant." How many of you just feel like that's total bull? I get my hopes up every month and they are smashed. Sitting there and realizing that you have started, you just want to start crying, even if you are in a public bathroom. I would really like to forget that I am ttc and then maybe it will happen. But I don't know how to forget and stop thinking about it. Charting my cycles for the last year and they are like clockwork. Have done ovulation tests for the last 3 months and they are like clockwork. Has anyone ever had this experience and still found out they were the source of the problems? Has anyone tried the home sperm count test kit?